Thus Far

Well break has been eventful thus far. I went to a very fun and fanciful wedding on Saturday. It's always nice to see two of your friends marry one another. What makes it even better is when you are surrounded by 'old' friends there, because even if they haven't seen you in forever they remember crazy details about you (or in my case, just that your crazy and love you for it).

My friend Charlie spent last semester in Japan and he brought me some chopsticks to add to my collection. I love them. I'm sad that I don't love every gift given to me (I can't stand flowery candle scents. I'm sorry, but I just can't do Gardenia.). I do love the person who gave it to me though. Maybe Momma will like it, so it doesn't go to waste.

I cleaned my (interim) room and then went shopping all day today. Tomorrow I have to go to work in Stilly to make some samples for a paper that has to be submitted by OPs b-day. It's going to be a short break.

mcat study: not started

My Ad for Design I

So I'm not a graphic artist. (Gooj if you want me to change it to Boomer I will.)

So good news, I don't have to take my German final. So now I only have 3 maybe 4.

Random Signals and Noise
Solid State Devices
OChem
Senior Design (which would be an overview of everything I know as an EE--but that one's a maybe)


As of right now I am completely unmotivated to start studying, but I know I have to and quick-like. but whatevs. This semester has been draining and I feel like a lot of my work has been for nothing. (although in retrospect I'm sure I will see all the valuable lessons I earned by complete and utter failure)

I almost want to get a job over break, but then again....I like my short freedom.

Days until Pancakes: 3
Days until I bounce: 7

My Semesters Work

well really the whole senior design classes work, but I helped a lot. Its a we-controllable sprinkler. The camouflage is the fire hydrant "case" (which is shown off of it right now). We are still having lots of problems with the internal components, so pray that they decide to stop acting up and start functioning as expected. Yeah and don't laugh at the size because those huge motors were given to us.

All by myself

I've tried to think of something to write, but its just not coming out. Mostly because there is so much to say but none i want to share. But I guess I can share a thought or two. I think the hardest thing that I will ever deal with is lonliness and it's especially apparent around the holiday season (at least while I'm at school). Maybe it's my own fault. I hate calling around just to find someone to eat with me. Maybe I make myself lonely.

Home to the upper room (a.k.a. upstairs at gramps) on the 18th. I have tons of presents to get.

Monday Monday

I so won

I AM the Limbo Queen.

yeah, I know, I suck at updating. There's this thing called Senior Design I that's ruining my life right now. I'm a little stressed out, but thats ok, I'm kinda used to it. I think I work well under pressure except fot the fact that I'll forget to eat, but I tried to eat multiple times today to account for previous lack of nutrition.

Tonight I'm going to the Mr. and Ms. International Pageant to watch my my friends Juan and Christine in their last reigning moments. They are doing a tradional latin courting dance (I can't remember what country it's from). Should be exciting.

Man, I have 3 weddings to go to in December. 3! On the 17th, 30th, and 31st. my, my, my, that love bug sure is going around.

Turkey Countdown: 8 days
P&P Countdown: 7 days

Life is good.
Ingat.

Last thoughts

I know that it's silly but I really loved the house I grew up in. I have to say that if I chose a place where I felt the safest in the world it would have to be my bedroom. It was the perfect shade of pale green that went perfectly with my white (with hints of green) bedroom set. My antique couch matched perfectly (it is a victorianesque couch-that may be vaugely familair from op, meeshells, and my old apt.). I loved my huge walk in closet where I would sometimes hide or pray in. (yeah I took prayer closet literally). I knew where every creek of the floor was. I'm going to miss decorating the christmas tree in the front window. I'm going to miss the little things.

maybe I'm just too sappy.

This is how we do

At work right now.....yeah I know. I am working. I don't think there are enough hours in the day, that or I have WAY too much going on. I had a good lunch today though so thats a plus. Making new friends is always fun.

I'm going home this weekend, but I have to study for my ochem test and help pack up my life.

ugh

My Indecision

I really thought this was something I'd resolved already. Oh well.

off to class now. I hate school.

Good Things

1. My seat warmers in my car.

2. Hugs

3. Guys that actually dance with you instead of sexing you on the dance floor. (ew)

4. Hot tea

5. Scarves

6. Having friends that can see straight to your heart. (not literally guys)

7. Sharing your talents with your friends. (although I'm sure people get sick of mine)

8. My beautifully fake CoCo Sunglasses that I got at the Texas state fair.

9. kiwi

10. Sunday Night Slow Jams

a rose by any other......

and so we hide ourselves behind shells of who we think we might be in hopes that we may never have to disclose the horrendiously vile truth of being the same monotonous shade of vibrant ruby. yes, silly things we are.

I guess I need a name thats not my own.

really

Very funny Philip. I'm pretty sure only about 3 people read my blog and I think I'm allowed to talk to them directly if I want to. I think you're just jealous because I haven't done it to you yet, but now I hope you're content. oh yeah and OP says that the painting looks really good where it is and I have to agree with her.

and Tim, hi. just so you don't feel left out.
p.s. is there a story behind the name? Is it Tiny Tim? just curious.

no pressure

If I bought you a canvas would paint me something. You don't have to if you don't want to, I won't be hurt.

La la la la la

I had a lot of fun on Saturday! The opera was pretty good as far as vocals were concerned. The people dressed in jeans on the other hand...not so amazing. Really?! It's the opera. Haven't you ever seen Pretty Woman she wears a quarter or half a million dollar necklace to the opera. (I think that means you're supposed to dress fancy).

I was a little tired though. I feel bad because I keep yawning. I should've had some coffee before I went instead of Sparkling Italian Wine (which was kinda spectacular actually). I think that while Faust may not be my favorite opera (hello 30 minute death scene), I really enjoyed it.

aw yeah

Your Pimp Name Is...

Scandalous Big Spenda

What's Your Pimp Name?

flashback

So I have this instinct to make sure everyone is included when there is a group. I think I can trace this back to my 10th or 11th birthday party. I had my 2 best friends stay the night. The only problem was that they were better friends with each other than they were with me. I was a little chubby and they were both skinny and pretty, but that didn't give them the right to run off without me. I hate how we as humans are drawn to include only the likeable in our ministry. I'd rather have 3 unattractive friends with hearts of gold than 30 beautiful friends who lied to me. But oh how to tame the eye.

Rejected.

Today I received my first "You're not good enough for us to even consider talking to you" notice. My application was declined for Lockheed Martin. Not that I really wanted to work for them anyway, but I felt that I looked pretty good on paper. Obviously not good enough. Job hunting sucks.

New Every Morning

I am just so thankful that the Lord brings refreshing every morning. New mercies for a new day. New strength, encouragement, and in particular, revelation. Yes, I have had a rough semester thus far and this week was the epitome of trials. I'm not going to go into details because the past is in the past. My view of the past is that it's not to be forgotten, but also not to be dwelled on.

Exciting news: I bought a laptop. It should be arriving in 2 weeks.

I've started the job hunting process. I went to the career fair and talked to tons of people. I have also signed up for a mock interview, and a real interview with National Instruments based out of Austin, Texas. I'm a little scared because I've never had to "sell myself", but I just need a little prep. Wherever I end up I know that I also have this God given quality within me to thrive at whatever I'm doing. I was made to excel.

Soon I will be saying goodbye to my home in Tulsa. We are putting it on the market in about a week and this weekend I'm going home to put my stuff in storage. Surreal is the only word that comes to mind.

On my mind

Much to say. None to share. I'm not as happy as I used to be.

California, here we come

I think I am addicted. The new Season starts next weekend. I can't wait!

Sprechen Sie Deutsch?

Ich bin schlecht gelaunt heute.

so I need a hug.

Bored Yet?

I feel terribly uninteresting at the moment. I think it would be more fun if I had a digital camera. This is the one I want, but I don't think it will make it to my Christmas list. It's kinda expensive. I guess I'm drawn to small shiny objects. Its one of the hazards of having decent taste. On another note: I will soon no longer have t-mobile. Goodbye mobile-mobile minutes. I will soon have cingular. I don't think my number will change though. Man, I hope not. That would suck. Night night dreamers, I have an early class tomorrow.

To be or not to be, that is the question.

Are we friends yet? that would be nice.

The Art of Food

I am going to a sushi making class tonight in Edmond with my roommate and I think it will be quite fun. There is a little trepidation on my part about properly preparing fish if I plan to use these skills in the future. I like the way eel tastes but I don't think I could cut one up....at least not yet.

currently listenings: Adam lives in Theory- Lauryn Hill and Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson

Frustrations

I have this one person that I always seem to butt heads with. I do and don't like this person all at the same time.

The facts

I don't like most of the music you listen to. But you're very interesting

It drives me insane that you can't spell. But I think you're funny

Your drinking sometimes scares me. But you're my favorite friend of Owen's.


but I kinda like you guys anyway
It's funny how little things make us who we are.
Say what you will about me, but know that I probably already think all the bad things anyway.

Dancing Queen

Lord deliver me from my dancing queen ways.

We are happy here

Dark streets, dirty and dead

A stench wafts from the trashcan fire

The only warmth on this bitter cold night

Our small group huddles

Each rubbing the ends of their fingers

Together through tattered gloves

The snow softly falls

Our only protection from constant flakes

Resides in the Pearl street overpass

A stray mews nearby

Sniffs through the alleyway debris

Picks up a stiff rat and silently bounds off

The glow from the fire glints

An ancient flask sneaks out momentarily

Quickly slipping back into a dark pocket

The same faces glow every night

And it is here we realize

We are exactly who we are

On this bitter cold night where warmth

Rises from a trashcan fire glowing

In the dead air of dark and dirty streets

Thoughts upon thoughts

So within the past year I've made a point to not be particularly deep with my xanga site. Not that I don't think deep thoughts anymore or anything like that, but I became relatively bored with theology and politics. I think I lost my patience concerning topics of that nature and therefore spun the other direction completely. Not that living in a sorority helped by any means. There are some very intelligent women in my sorority, but the topics of conversation rarely lean towards Nietzsche, absolutism, or the fall of the Roman Empire. I am now reading East of Eden by Steinbeck and am thoroughly enjoying the character desrciptions and development. Maybe I'm working my way back to more in depth thoughts on paper. Only time will tell.

I did go visit my dotter in the Theta house tonight and I realized that no matter how much I hate sorority girls in large groups (as most people have a right to) that I absolutely love each one of my sisters and have missed spending time with them. How 'bout them apples.

My Whatever

I hate it when people delete my comments. grow up.

Summer Happenings

The teeth(3) of wisdom have escaped

Kenny's been at camp all summer.

I bet you can't guess what holiday this is.

Monica Jammin

My Older brothers Craig(left) and Robby.

Common Ground Again

Wow, yesterday was a rough day. I'm much better today. I guess everyone has days of weakness, I think girls do more often than boys though. I had a pretty good day; I was productive at work, I worked out afterwards, I cooked myself dinner (!) , I went to the 3rd Place to Study, I read my Relevant Magazine, I updated my xanga and blogger (duh), and I think thats about all. I still have to wash my face and read my bible before I go to bed which will happen shortly.

I wish I could stop crying

Can we survive the move? My mom doesn't seem to think so. I think if my parents get divorced I'll run away and live where I don't have to put up with that crap ever again (although it is what drove me to start writing poetry in the first place when I was little) . And it just so happens I'm very good at the running away part. In fact, I've broken up with almost everyone I've ever dated within 3 weeks. I think I'm just scared mostly. I'm not ready for marriage yet, and I'll never be ready if all I'll end up with is a relationship like my parents have. The most important thing is missing from the picture. Trust in God. I'll never live without that. I'll die a virgin if I have to (I don't want to, but thats not the point).

no picture today I hardly feel like it.

Midnight Margaritas

I'm ready. (For Margaritas that is) I didn't go out last night. I didn't feel like it. I'm all about being social and everything but I think that "going out" can turn into a lifestyle that I don't want. A very empty life. So instead I organized/filed all my financial papers. I know it doesn't sound very fun, but it really needed to be done. I've come to the conclusion that I really suck at decorating, especially if I can't paint. I'm not very happy with my room right now. My spice rack is still waiting to be completed, but I need more spices. I took some pictures with my mom's camera when I had it but she still hasn't sent those to me. ::insert sigh here::

Thrashin Thursday

Yes, that's right, today I am getting a pedicure. I can't wait. :) So OP and I are going to have a girls night in on Friday night, but its up to her whether it will be at her house or mine. Maybe we'll make midnight margaritas like in the movie Practical Magic. I'm really going to miss her when she leaves for Texas. :' ( At least I can call her which wasn't as easy to do when she lived in Costa Rica. Good news: I washed my car! Now it's nice and shiny like it deserves to be. I'm ready for my roomate to be home from Montana. I'm sick of living alone. I started to understand a little of the fear that some people have of not wanting to be alone for the rest of their lives. I hope that I would never be in a relationship just so I wouldn't be alone. I think that's silly.

Things to Do

My car really needs a bath. I've wanted to wash it for like 2 weeks now. I guess I better do that. I broke down and am paying someone to mow my lawn, it was getting out of control. I get my wisdom teeth out the 27th which is OP's last day in town. I only have 3 so hopefully it won't be too bad! My mom called me the other day and asked if I was going to be in town this weekend so I guess I'll go home. They brought me back a present from my brother when they went to Colorado to visit him. I wish they would've invited me to go. I guess I'll have to go see Pikes Peak on my own. I wonder where I will live when I graduate from college. I could go anywhere.

Thoughts

I think I'm starting to really dislike posed pictures of me (minus this one that my "sister" sent me of us together at formal. It's really spectacular. I think I'll try to post it later. ) I wish I hadn't taken my 4 MP digital elph back. I really miss it. Stupid car payment. Oh well, such is life. I would've said it in french, but I can't spell it and I really don't feel like looking it up.

I think I'm a low maintainance eater. I can cook but I just never feel like it. When I do it is usually more of baking than cooking. I'd much rather bake, it's fun.

pistaccios (sp?) are my favorite nuts right now.

I love pictures

Momma and Me

Alternate Me

This is me sad and in the winter.

Fun with Southpark

Me

O.P.

Long Day

oh my.

Italy. My first love.