Sickness

So I yesterday I started feeling sick. My throat hurts especially when I cough. My voice fails at times and sounds a little funny. Yuck. DayQuil here I come.

Beautiful Things

If only I had skill

Game, Some Guys Have It

yeah, I got flowers today. This was the first time I was actually sent flowers by someone other than my parents (and not on my birthday). And don't worry of course I didn't just go out with him because I was bored, he's very good looking. ;P

second thoughts

Some people are more than they appear to be.

On a Sad Note

So I might have to drop wine tasting sadly. It's looking as though I'm gonna kill myself this semester.

Not Even A Goodbye

I guess you don't really know how much you love someone until they are gone.

This seems so silly, but my family had to put my dog to sleep today. She got out of our ghetto fence and wandered to 129th and got hit by a car. She was severly injured and couldn't recognize my Dad, or anyone else for that matter. She had multiple seizures and was in so much pain that they had to put her to sleep. I've cried 3 times. The first when my brother called to tell me, the second when my Mom called to tell me details and the third, right this very moment.
I don't even really like dogs, but she grew on me. We've had her since I was in 7th grade I think. I always played with her when no one else would. She knew exactly what I wanted when I told her to go get her toy. Its funny how things can creep into your life and you don't even realize that you care so much about them.

Man I'm such a bleeding heart.

I'll put a picture up as soon as I can scan it.

Someone Needs a Hug

New Beginnings

So apparently I've been watching way too much Sex and the City recently because I've begun to internally dialogue my life and thoughts about my life in the same manner as Carrie Bradshaw.
A new year, a time for new beginnings, or so it seems. Are things ever new and fresh or are we stuck in a perpetual recycling of the same old same old.

I think I'm ready to get out of Stillwater and move away from my parents so I can grow up a little. We had another "You can't marry a black or arab" conversation this holiday season. My Dad tried to make me promise I wouldn't marry a black man. Um dad, I'm not saying that I am, but I'm not promising that, it's stupid and juvinile.

p.s.
My mom asked me the other day if I wished that I was born Asian. I almost fell out of my chair. Really mom? Just because I collect chopsticks, like clean lines, and my best friend is Asian doesn't mean that. Appreciation and respect is one thing, coveting is quite another.