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flashback

So I have this instinct to make sure everyone is included when there is a group. I think I can trace this back to my 10th or 11th birthday party. I had my 2 best friends stay the night. The only problem was that they were better friends with each other than they were with me. I was a little chubby and they were both skinny and pretty, but that didn't give them the right to run off without me. I hate how we as humans are drawn to include only the likeable in our ministry. I'd rather have 3 unattractive friends with hearts of gold than 30 beautiful friends who lied to me. But oh how to tame the eye.

Rejected.

Today I received my first "You're not good enough for us to even consider talking to you" notice. My application was declined for Lockheed Martin. Not that I really wanted to work for them anyway, but I felt that I looked pretty good on paper. Obviously not good enough. Job hunting sucks.

New Every Morning

I am just so thankful that the Lord brings refreshing every morning. New mercies for a new day. New strength, encouragement, and in particular, revelation. Yes, I have had a rough semester thus far and this week was the epitome of trials. I'm not going to go into details because the past is in the past. My view of the past is that it's not to be forgotten, but also not to be dwelled on.

Exciting news: I bought a laptop. It should be arriving in 2 weeks.

I've started the job hunting process. I went to the career fair and talked to tons of people. I have also signed up for a mock interview, and a real interview with National Instruments based out of Austin, Texas. I'm a little scared because I've never had to "sell myself", but I just need a little prep. Wherever I end up I know that I also have this God given quality within me to thrive at whatever I'm doing. I was made to excel.

Soon I will be saying goodbye to my home in Tulsa. We are putting it on the market in about a week and this weekend I'm going home to put my stuff in storage. Surreal is the only word that comes to mind.

On my mind

Much to say. None to share. I'm not as happy as I used to be.

California, here we come

I think I am addicted. The new Season starts next weekend. I can't wait!